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WOW! I'm nineteen...HOLY CRAP! anyways yeah i turned nineteen today. God i remember when i was in elementary..time goes by so damn fast. Funny thing i had people show up at my house at like 1:00 am this morning. They didn't know why they were pulled into menomonee falls and i was its an omen because its my birthday today!!! Enough with the rambling on. I want to thank all of my watchers for being great people for supporting me and my poetry throughout my time here. YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!! AND MY BLACKROSES FOR ALL!



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i will have to take a brief break with my devious spotlight for i have an announcement to make. *ahem* As of last night at 5 p.m. i received the last piece of hardware for my computer. Its time Finally to move on from my falling to pieces laptop to my spiffy, wonderful gaming desktop. If you would like to know the specs just let me know. I was just so excited that i had to make a journal about it!



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This girl has some of the cutest anime pictures ever! seriously people the cutest! All hand drawn, decorated background's fitting the mood of the picture. Lightly done colored pencil hues. Her coloring is also done very well. She adds depth with her shadowing techniques. If you want a light, airy, cute anime experience please visit her, check out her gallery and give some well deserved TLC!

Without further a due, I present you Bee-happi!





Please enjoy her work as much as i have

NOW GO BE AWW-ED TO DEATH!



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A fairly new watcher of mine. A darling emotional writer from the Netherlands. her writing packs the punch with that pungent emotional sting that keeps readers like us on our toes and eager for more. Writers and readers alike will be stricken by her charming and deep meanings to her work. I think she deserves some TLC and possible new admirers. So please visit her and be stricken!

Without further a due, I present you, xchristientjee.





I hope you enjoy her as much as I do.



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Everyone i would love to introduce you to my claimed little sister! she is an amazing stylized artist with much promise and i can assure you she will not disappoint. With her longings to make a graphic novel (manga) and possibly her own original fiction makes her very dedicated to her work. As she says, she bleeds for her work. I love that line. Her uniqueness shines through every window you can think of. Writing, drawing, even through her creativity of her inspiration for her work. So if you will visit her, give her some love and say a few kind, encouraging words to her

Without further a due, I present you. Nanaki-E





I hope you enjoy her as much as i do. Also, nanaki, I reward you with a and a for all your wonderful efforts.

Congratulations!! For being under my spotlight, consider it an honor!



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I want to feature today a one of a kind mature romance writer. She has swayed me with her interesting way of putting together words that melt into a perfect erotic fantasy written on paper. The many structures that she uses will leave you refreshed and in awe. Her talent is something you need to check out, especially if you love literature. And i know i have quite a few writer's that i befriended that would be more than delighted to take the time and visit her gallery and possibly say a few kind words to her.

without further a due. I present you, klit-shy.






I hope you enjoy her work as much as i do.



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I don't know how many of you deviants have heard of him, but today i would love to take you on a journey into his beautiful, elegant expertise as a composer. his pieces are filled with many different sounds,and changes through out expressing the height of emotion, the taste that takes you through many twists and turns putting you in a trance. And you will notice how his music puts him in a trance as he watches his orchestra, his pieces being brought to life. I mean he literally plays the key broads with his eyes closed he gets so entranced! it really is quite the sight to see. And now here are a series of links that you may click on if you want to have a taste of this reality that i can't seem to get enough of. Every song your about to hear is hand written by the man himself. Its impressive Enjoy and may you become entranced as well.

[link] Yanni-Rainmaker (an array of colorful instruments with a saucy beat)

[link] is all ( this one has it all, even power vocals!)

[link] (the violin work here is outstanding!!!)

If you would like to hear more, let me know and i will send you a note with additional links. Thank you and have a great day!



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Check it out! i finally have CSS. And i like this one very much so. Though i do not know if i will keep it. If i can find someone who can make one that fits my theme, then i will definitely change it. So guys what you think? Credit of course doesn't go to me, you will find who the credit belongs to on the bottom of the journal.



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I'm baking up a batch of writer's block cookies
Misshapen and Distaste
Like the sense that seems to drown in my head
Not a drop of ink from my tongue, in my mind not a drop of angst
Slaving over this stove to try to make something of a blooming rarity
But I'm lacking my hands that are able to write variety
I'm lacking the mind with infinite worlds and Powerful songs
So these cookies I make are of the worst kind
I hope that this stove and I will make magic in its womb
So no longer will have this terrible taste in my mouth dried of ink
So no longer will I have hands that can't write in the form of many thoughts
So I no longer have to have a mind that won't drown in is own notions
So I no longer have to bake up writer's block cookies

This is my attempt to write how i feel at this moment for i can't write shit now. Its definitely been awhile since i had writers block defeat me, but i knew that it would come along eventually. Yeah. I'm hoping i will be able to write for you guys in a few weeks, but i do not know. Because i have had writer's block so bad that i couldn't write for a what felt like a year. Also, i couldn't write on my original fictions for about three years. I finally had something come to me in the past months and its writer's block all over again.



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So my cat, whiskas, Just suffered from a broken fang, because he decided to attack my step father for no apparent reason, and My step dad had no choice, because my cat wanted to attack his ankles, so he swatted my cat across its mouth. He didn't realize how hard he did it until he noticed the cat crying due to the pain of his fang being broken off. OUCH!

I don't even know whats going on with my cat? Maybe he is going through withdrawal being without me. hell i did raise him, and i was the one who gave him love. but he went through two days with bleeding gums... whimpering, limping, throwing up from the convulsions, and fever...

My mom called me up literally crying and after that i couldn't work, i felt the cat's pain all day, everything on my body ached. I felt like crying, because he is my kitty and i care about him..

But i hear he is doing better now, thank god. Today he was actually puring. but even still he won't eat and he barely drinks. This sunday, since i am the only one that he lets wash him, i have to give him a bath, because he has a lot of blood on his precious coat.


on the other hand..check it out!

My authentic japanese name is 猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 歩 Ayumu (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
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Alrighty then. So Chris and i went to pick n save to get some food. We were thirsty and we needed some refreshment for the house, so we went in the soft drink and snack food section. Chris went to grab some orange soda. We are orange soda fanatics! Lol. Anyways while he grabbed two two liters of soda, one sprite two liter decided to bail from its restraints and fell to the ground. Not a second later, Chris looked down and the damn bottle was gone. No where in sight. Mind you i was behind him, and i watched that bottle. It was very amusing too. Lets see it hit the ground, blew its own cap off and the soda that shot out of the bottle propelled it out of the lane and around the corner. I saw the entire thing. Chris was slow on the response as usual. And i was like LMAO! Great thing about it everyone around us was oblivious. Chris turned to look at me and i was like

" you know what? I don't think that bottle likes you very much. you disturbed its slumber and it got pissed at you and left."

His response was...."shut up"

That was the greatest two seconds of my life. I wish we could've posted it on youtube. Funny not even a minute later one of their employees comes heading our way. We told him about and he was like ah, gotcha.

Man it was great! classic moments like these don't happen very often.


here is something cool that i want to share with you. and yes i'm making this an edit because its so freaking cool! i had no idea that we all can have authentic japanese names!

My authentic japanese name is 猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 歩 Ayumu (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
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Many of you don't really know me as an artist, just more of a writer and such. In fact I'm a jack of many trades. In high school i aced all of my art classes, thus includes: 3-D design, 2-D design, watercolor, Drawing. The only ones that i didn't bother entering was jewelry design, painting, and some craft class...

Anyways. This Journal is entitled to my featured piece. White Blossoms. This was my fifth Projects in Watercolor's class. Using The wet on wet as the featured technique. I used Masking fluid for the white of the blossoms. Wet on wet as the background to give the unfocused feel, so the blossoms are the outstanding feature. All the rest is fine brush details done be no other than myself.

I hope you like it.

Note: Final Grade on this one was an A/A+

Here a FUN FACT about me. My favorites mediums are pastels, watercolor and oil pants!

Also, I will have more of my art work posted here soon, once i get my scanner working. Heads up!

As you all know i'm horribly sick right now...But there is good news to share with you, that can put an end to worrying about poor little sick me. Oh who am I trying to kid, you guys will worry...

Anyways. On the brighter side of things, hence the subject on this entry, Chris and I went on an apartment interview today. We looked at a lofted one bedroom and a studio. We are happy that we don't have to pay for heat or water, just electric. We are seriously considering this. So we filled out the application! Hopefully if they accept us, will will be on our merry way out of this house and into our own. I'm excited and hoping we can move out in may.

Also, My mom and I are talking again. We haven't spoke for over four months due to a situation that needed to be put behind us. Yeah, so we are talking again! Finally was able to see my cats..oh how i missed them.

Yeah, so that about wraps things up. I wanted to let people know that my life right now isn't all that bad, and that there are some positives that i have to remind myself of..I was getting a bit depressed. But I'm happy again. ^__^

But if we could move out...I will be so freaking happy, you have no idea how happy i'll be.

I am so excited and happy that my friend, also known on this site as Th3krimzon1 is to be a dad! its exciting, very exciting! And i can't express my congrats anymore than to make it part of my journal. Congratulations! Well this concludes the lovely part of my journal.

On to the crappy. The crappy indeed. Wonder why i was so incredibly active and it just fell down? Well I'm dealing with two infections attacking me at once! Its insane! A UTI and i freaking virus that is making me so cold, feverish and extremely achy. I'm hoping i can get over these soon, so i can be more active again, and no medications that i can't afford shoved up my ass. Sorry for me being vulgar. I don't want to have ten thousand prescriptions on my plate! Just because i have a UTI! no thank you. Yeah its been hell...and i have to work my ass off through this crap. And my work is being very bitchy and choses not to understand.

Like i said i hope i can get better here soon, so there will be no reason to take a doctors trip and spend hundreds of dollars on meds.

In the end i want to apologize that i have been absent.

I just don't comprehend when i run into someone while working and they look like they are ready to shoot with any ammo you throw at them; whether it be hello, or even good morning. On an average day i deal with close to 10-15 bitchy people. The shitty part is that I'm a lead supervisor: which means i need to be a sweet as a button, and be a lovely role model. Tell you what, half the time i want to rip their ever-loving heads off. They don't deserve compassion when they bitch because they HAVE to spend 10 dollars on house supplies. People seriously NEED to start living life and get over the crap that only counts on a minuscule scale!!!

Yes I'm annoyed, irritated, aggravated right now! Because dumb asses always feel they need to be pissy about every damn thing.

People need to start letting go. I know it was hard for me..but i'm finally letting go. Why can't the rest of the world? God!

I'm sick of feeling horrible when i get back from work, because someone couldn't catch the sunrise because of a couple fucking clouds!!

Forgive me, i must've woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. not in a good mood...

If there is something that i can't stand in this world. Something that i wouldn't have to second guess about killing: Two-faced people. People who say one thing and do the other. People who feel on thing and then do the other. Or people who tell you one thing and tell someone else another. people who pretty much can't make up their minds! and its an ability that they were born without..making up their minds that is. And it causes so much grief, pain, anger, distrust! All that shit that you don't need in your life already. The pain that these people cause is so deep that it can't be healed, and if there is a chance of it. It's slim. For all you people out there that i care about. Stay away from these two-faces. Stay away from them as far as you can possibly be. Just a heads up!

My life went from hell to happiness. This Elation that i feel is just amazing! its the feeling you get when you fall in love. Its the butterflies you feel. A relative and i finally broke our long over-due silence. Talking never felt this good. He is my big brother. Sure we aren't related by blood but we very well could be. We have been through quite a bit even though i have never met met him. thank the lord the internet. It brings you closer than some would like to think. I'm saying this because if it weren't for the internet i wouldn't have met him. throughout my life i had no older siblings...it was lonely for me because i had no one to hold to, talk to...or play with. And finally someone i could give the title of big brother is enthralling. It gives me that sense that i'm not truly anymore. Sure you can be lovers and have a great partner. But family is important too. This journal entry is just how the breaking of conflict between family members, and what a difference it could make to your outlook on your life's current cycle. Being able to talk to him made me feel loads better. I'm sure some of you who read this can relate to this very real feeling and situation.

Life just couldn't be anymore of a pain in the ass. I'm serious! i JUST GOT PROMOTED! and everything is just screwing up for me..i don't know if i want to try or quit. My manager treats me like a dog, works me, and works me. and still bitches that i do a shitty job. WHEN I'M THE ONE WHO HAS THE MOST F%$#! EXPERIENCE! Two, Chris is being a little bitch lately....damn being committed to someone is difficult enough as it is. Having money issues! i couldn't be anymore stressed out about life as i am now....and Jamie have to say that breaking the ice helped this stress relieve a little bit. i want to say thank you. Also, i'm trying to save up some money to make a custom gaming rig, and i can't wait much longer to finally have a desktop....i have waited too damn long already as it is. And Mike, Chris Brother, is some how making money out of his ass from some dumb ass teenager friends and a supposedly a 23 year old who just hands money over to him like candy. It pisses me off o no end, how Chris and i are working our asses off and here is his low-life brother with no job getting everything that he could imagine. I guess life is just unfair in every aspect. I guess its true when they say that nice guys finish last.

are you a gamer?

Do you like playing a game of your choice with a group of online freinds?

if yes then the {LoW} clan is the clan for you.

I'm serious! we don't discriminate. you can play whatever game you may as long as you wear the tags! be awesome! and pown! Fight and win with being affliated with other clans!
Even though we do have games the we like to play together as a team like:

CoD 4

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